When I woke up, I just lay there. Slowly, the world came to my awareness. I am trying to be aware of my world, but I am not doing a good job. I didn’t care about the rest of the world. Grief made me very self-focused. I’m not even sure it’s a sin. I […]
I couldn’t feel God’s arms around me. He was with me, but I couldn’t feel him. I could feel my family and friends’ arms around me, though. God loved me through them. My buddies came over, the three men from the “Sandhedrin” group, a group of Christian men whose name came from our many
That’s when the black hole first appeared. It wasn’t a vision; it was an experience. A state of hopelessness and pain, not seen but experienced. I feared I would be lost forever if I had fallen into it. It was both the place of my greatest fear and the fear of that fear.
My wonderful wife Deb had been living with a weird disease called “sarcoidosis” for the last year and a half before she passed. I had no idea what it was. My mentor, Mike, a medical doctor, tried to explain it to me, but I didn’t fully understand. There is no cure for this disease. There
