Phase I: Chaos
- #42 Entry Weeks 26 Frank and LucianoOne of my grieving tasks is to “redefine myself,” a suggestion given to me by my widower group. So, I’m on a “quest,” which is an excellent word and sounds more adventurous than the word “adventure.” This quest is an important step in my journey through grief. I have to redefine myself. It’s not one I want to take; it’s a quest I must take. When I first tried to define who I was in Junior High. Before that, I wasn’t “self-aware,” like the Terminator in that second movie. I was just aware. I was a bundle of fear… Read more: #42 Entry Weeks 26 Frank and Luciano
- #41 Entry Week 25 WeaknessSin has always had such a grip on me. Sexual images storm through my mind like a group of puppies running in an open field. Well…they do sometimes. Sometimes, I have victory. And sometimes, I feel like a victim of my thoughts. The thoughts are like puppies running every which way, yipping and yapping the whole time. It’s impossible to control them. Or at least, it seems impossible. I don’t know what to do. I feel defeated. And sometimes, when feeling like this, I just let them run wild. And I end up completely defeated. A fellow widower recently told… Read more: #41 Entry Week 25 Weakness