The best song ever is the one in your head….

June 16, 2012

The following is an email I wrote to my daughter, Kristin, on 8/6/2010, only 3 months after Katherine’s death.  This email was the first time I described the phoenomenon.  I have told its story many times since, but this is its freshest telling:

Then this morning, my 4:30 am alarm went off. I went to the bathroom and immediately began a phrase in my head that I knew to be a song.  I only had three words..….”dah-dah in the morning”.  It kept coming a little bit clearer, but I couldn’t get the first words.  I understood the cadence. I couldn’t get it to stop pushing to clear the threshold of understanding what it was.  It was so compelling.  I finally went online and searched for the words I did know, “…in the morning” and bingo: Diana Ross “Touch Me In The Morning”.  It was totally all-right-there—a full communication from beyond the veil.  It just made me so happy.  I’ve never “hummed” that song in my life.  Katie picked it out of the recesses of my mind and gave me a gift.  I had been asking for a “sign”.  I was looking for something about butterflies since I have been very attentive to butterflies lately, but I got this instead.  No need to figure out the mystery. It’s just all gift.

The humming of the melody of this song has remained a part of my morning routine for the last 2 years.  Right after the alarm goes off, usually at 4:30 am., unless I am distracted by some immediate nonsense about the upcoming days’ activities or worries, this tune comes right up out of my mind without my being conscious of it or even fully awake.  It must be pinned to my psyche’s inner ear.  Its occurrence  comforts me like nothing else has.

Watch utube and listen to:  Diana Ross “Touch Me In The Morning”

……here are the written lyrics—get ready for a power surge.

Touch Me In The Morning


Touch me in the morning
Then just walk away
We don’t have tomorrow
But we had yesterday
Wasn’t it me who said that
Nothing good’s gonna last forever?
And wasn’t it me who said
Let’s just be glad for the time together?
It must’ve been hard to tell me
That you’ve given all you had to give
I can understand you’re feeling that way
Everybody’s got their life to live
Well, I can say good-bye in the cold morning light
But I can’t watch love die in the warmth of the night
If I’ve got to be strong
Don’t you know I need to have tonight when you’re gone?
‘Till you go I need to lie here and think about
The last time that you’ll touch me in the morning
Then just close the door
Leave me as you found me, empty like before
Wasn’t it yesterday
We used to laugh at the wind behind us?
Didn’t we run away and hope
That time wouldn’t try to find us (Didn’t we run)

Didn’t we take each other
To a place where no one’s ever been?
Yeah, I really need you near me tonight
‘Cause you’ll never take me there again
Let me watch you go
With the sun in my eyes
We’ve seen how love can grow
Now we’ll see how it dies
If I’ve got to be strong
Don’t you know I need to have tonight when you’re gone?
‘Till you go I need to hold you until the time
Your hands reach out and touch me in the morning
(Mornings where blue and gold and we could feel one another living)
Then just walk away
(We walked with a dream to hold and we could take what the world was giving)
We don’t have tomorrow,
(There’s no tomorrow here, there’s only love and the time to chase it)
But we had yesterday
(But yesterday’s gone my love, there’s only now and it’s time to face it)
Touch me in the morning…

2 Responses to “The best song ever is the one in your head….”

  1. ctlieber said

    Kay, You are a very talented writer. I know you were writing from the intensity of your emotions and if you are like me writing can be therapeutic. I know it has been a whle and it may even be that the loss of Maggie and Sebatian may have rekindled that sorrow. I love Katherine’s message to you.

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